too much in my mind i cant find the right word to write.

i need motivation.

i need.
MOTIVATION.

sambung belajar pun mahal, work harder.
lagi kau nak beli rumah. beli kereta.
merata ceruk dunia kau nak jelajah.
impian satu.impian dua. makin gila kalau kau
ada impian sampai tak cukup kertas dalam buku.
lagi kalau kau masuk kahwin dalam list,with child(s)
after few months.

yeah, duitkan?

tapi sibuk macam mana pun kau nak kejar semua tu,
ingatlah manusia yang bolehkan kau wujudkan
benda-benda yang kau nak kejar tu.

Mak.Ayah.

Mak.

put her first. make her feels awesome.
HAWSOME ok? bukan suam suam kuku punya gembira. 

oh. a little dusty here. *blow hard*

life is crazy. and what they said, about you being a robot, well, it's kind of true. but the perk of it is, you have money flowing, either in or out of your bank account, not static with zero amount. so not much of complaining here.

and not much going on with life.
but sure thing, good thing comes slipping itself here and there between the moments. life can't be all bad.

berterabur jiwa.

celaru.

Tuhan.

kadang-kadang Allah datangkan ujian,
resah hati,
datangkan malang pada benda yang kita sayang,
mungkin,
sebab kau selalu lupa Dia,
kau alpa dengan dunia,
Dia cuma nyatakan,
Dia rindu pada kau.
maka kau perlu ingat semula Dia.
itu sebenarnya kejadian kau di dunia.
untuk kau abdikan diri pada Dia.
bukan dunia.

kenapa diam kau dan aku,
saat dunia penuh bunyi.

do what you love for living,
it makes you breathe easier.

dulu masa habis study, aku nganggur kejap.
sebulan setengah mcm tu.time tu sibuk nak kija,
nak kija 7eleven la, kilang la, station minyak la,
kdai mkn la, sbb bosan.
mak marah suruh duk diam-diam dalam rumah.
makan tgk tv, hbiskan stok novel berkotak-kotak tu mak cakap.
mak cakap nanti dah kija betul, penat.

ye mak. betul cakap mak. penat.
rasa nak menangis.
tapi semua cakap, mental lemah.

tersentuh jiwa sekejap time penat-penat.

salah? untuk cakap penat?
lepas tu nak cakap apa?
kalau penat yang aku rasa.

i can't never look into your eyes,
as my love will be flooding out tears,
why, i ask silently,
why, that i am not bold enough,
to ask you,
is this story ours?

this lurking sadness, is burdening me.
i am lost. again.
when i thought i found the end road,
it is again tells me,
i am wrong.

Tuhan.
tunjukkan aku jalan.

Jangan pernah lupa Tuhan.

Maybe I love too much
Maybe I scared too much

Do you?

Tell me,
We're going to hold hand till 80.
Always?

mereka berkata tentang,
bagaimana mencari calon teman syurga

Tuhan,
aku ragu-ragu,
aku tak pasti,
aku kelabu,
aku mencurigai,

pada dia yang sedang
pegang hati,

maaf

aku suka kerja.
walau penat.
walau banyak kerenah manusia.
walau tak cukup tangan urus sini sana.
walau balik otak dah macam tak boleh proses benda.
walau rasa macam kadang-kadang nak jadi suri rumah sepenuh masa.

aku tetap suka bekerja.
sebab bekerja buat aku rasa, hidup itu satu nilai.

LINUS


banyak yang boleh dipersoal.

i might die from too much.. cloud nine.

bukan nak cakap,
tapi kat sini semua proses lambat.
gaji lambat.
naik pangkat lambat.
sah jawatan lambat.
makan sahaja cepat.

sabar.

sementara waktu minum air hujan,
ragut rumput.

mars.
kit kat.
cadbury.
cloud nine.

i do dislike kit kat.

i am tougher than life.
i know.

is this the feeling?
being loved by the one you longing for?

like the stars arent enough to fill in the sky
like the song isnt long enough to tell
like the day and night too short to dream on
like reality is now feels so vividly dreamy

that almost everyday becomes an important date
that almost every midnight shouldnt end

like i said, "cloud nine"
and you said,"overload"

i cant feel my own heart beating.
does it stop...?

life should be ..feel great..?isnt it...??

tunggu gaji.

manusia ada macam-macam.
ikut nasihat aku
yang dah makan garam 24 tahun,
walau pun tak lama sangat baru hidup,
tapi nasihat aku,
tak payah layan.
buat muka toya aja.

dah 21 hari dalam tahun 2015.
aku macam lagi dalam 21 hari 2008.

bila maju.
sepak diri sendiri.