hanya sekali,
untuk sekali,
lihat aku berdiri,
disini,
di tapak yang sama,
dengan renungan yang sama,
membawa degupan yang sama,

cuma lihat aku,
walau kau tak punya
rasa apa.

setia aku,
seperti hembus nafas kau
setiap saat dan setiap kali,
berada di setiap ruang antara
ruang kecil rusuk kau,
larut dalam salur darah
menghubung degup jantung
ke setiap organ tubuh kau,
berubahnya hitam rambut
ke putih uban,
sesama rentak nadi yang
selari rentak jantung,
setia aku,
seperti hidup hingga menemu mati,
cuma kau
belum masih mengerti.

i want:

darker skin colour
skinnier body
whiter teeth
smaller eyes
smirk-y smile
a set of genius brain
clothes
money
car

no,

i just want
to learn
how to be
grateful because
it is fucking
hard
to learn
they don't
teach the steps
and formulae at
school.

i am failing,
deeper.and lower.

i lied.
i am sorry.

things are philosophically painful.

so many dreams,
and so many plans,
we had left behind,

did you think about them?
somewhere between
your reading and day dream?

the best kind
of humans
are the
ones who stay.

r.m.drake

aku cuma mahu
lari
dari kenyataan
hidup.