Last year (up till today) , I can conclude that what we wanted most , somehow, in most twisted faith, you won't get it, but in another absurd  twisted faith (too), you'll get what you avoid the most. if we viewed this form a positive side, this should teach you the word 'redha',grow you as a person, make you stronger and more-whatever- positive- shit that should come from this , but from the opposite view, FUCK this.