so i have this little habit lately.
looking at people around me intensely,
like really looking at them and try to discover,
what is it behind that sweet smile, or tired eyes,
kind of searching in their glimpses when they walk if
they are happy.. or maybe sad..or maybe just living the day 
till they meet tomorrow.
and try to look deeper in my routines.
my life. the meaning behind everything.

i kind of stuck. 
it feels like walking on burning fire one second and freezing
to death cold ice the next. 
it's hard. it's hard to tell myself it's going to be okay. . 
sleep is the only thing i know how to stop 
everything from working their ways to poke my sanity.


why does it feel so hard to live...?